For about two and a half weeks straight one or both girls were sick. We were going a little stir crazy and may have seemed a little crazy with cabin fever. That just meant we had to get creative. There were a lot of baths to make miss Kate happy and when Ellie was sick we watched every single episode of Jake and the Never land Pirates at least twice.

I'm so glad that they are both feeling better now so that we can go outside and go do things again! We hadn't been to story time in a few weeks and we were excited to go this past week. After story time we headed to the park with some friends. It was needed by all parties involved. 

A funny story about Ellie... I had given both girls their own bowl of cheerios to eat as a snack in the living room. Ellie, being ingenious, decided that eating with her feet would be a good idea. She would stick a piece between her big toe, bring her foot up to her mouth, and eat if from right in between her toes. So gross but so funny at the same time.

Yesterday we stripped the cushions off the couch to vacuum unterneath them. Ellie somehow fell off head first and started laughing, saying that she did a big flip. She did it a few more times, but quickly learned to put her hands down first and then roll off. When Cody got home from work last night I asked her to show him how she did a big flip. Somehow she forgot. She put a pillow on the floor and pretty much face planted/belly flopped right onto it. We couldn't help but laugh while she looked confused and then finally started laughing along with us.  

I know most people are so sick and tired of hearing about the song "Let it go" from Disney's movie frozen. I hate all the speculations about there being subliminal messages about the sexuality of Elsa. I think the reason I hate it so much is because for me the song has an entirely different meaning. 

I wont lie, its a song I get pumped up to when I run and I love it. To me its about literally letting go and taking a breath. Its about getting rid of things and stop holding onto things that are negatively affecting you in your life. In my life its about letting go of all the things I can't do or accomplish. Its about learning to let go when I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water to all the things that aren't important so I am able to refocus on what is. 

When I listen to this song I am reminded that I am not going to be perfect, ever. And that's perfectly alright. But what I can do is change my attitude to one that is more positive. In the song she talks about not letting her fears control her anymore and testing the limits. Its about letting go of the fear of trying that is holding me back from trying new things, from being a better friend, or wife or mother because they are unfamiliar. Let go of that fear and just do it. Try it, why not?!

Let go of the fear of not being good enough. Or just enough in general. I wont lie, sometimes I doubt my role as a mother and a wife and wonder how different things would be if I was a completely different person. I look at others and think that they are so much better than me, more spiritual, more in tune with their children's needs, their relationship with their husbands looks so much different than mine. But I am learning to let them go. Let go of the comparing and just try to do better today to be better than I was yesterday, not someone else. 

So here I am, and here I will stay. Because I am learning to let go to be a better me. The best me I can be.

And because I'm a sucker for all things piano... and this is probably the best cover I've heard.

Two of the hardest things as a parent is watching a sick kid be miserable and the other is having to clean up throw up. Just our luck we had both happen today. Now that I am in bed with everyone else asleep I can laugh about it, just don't ask what I was doing earlier. 

We headed to Twin this afternoon to make a "quick" Costco run. We should have known that those are impossible. Cody's quick stop at the store (the main store he works for in twin) ended up being me and the girls playing in the pick up for over an hour while I patiently waited for Cody to return so I could use the restroom (that place is a maze).

I usually make up some excuse to swing by target but decided this would be a purely Costco trip and I was very proud of myself. As we were headed that way Ellie kept complaining about her stomach hurting. I should have caught on to the hints of refusing any and all food and only requesting milk as meaning this was a day she was going to throw up. So she's complaining about her stomach hurting and blah blah blah. I turn to ask Cody is he has cash for us to grab a slice of pizza for her to eat while we shop and that's when I heard it. It was bad. All over her and her beloved blanket and puddle beneath her. We made a stop at target to grab new clothes and get her cleaned up. Ellie didn't mind because Cody picked up clothes off the clearance rack and the shirt happened to be hello kitty. 

I forgot to mention that she is going through a naked phase. Since we got home she has been taking off her pjs so she can wear the hello kitty shirt which was in the wash with her blanket. 

And miss Kate has had a fever today. Boo! But that hasn't stopped her too much, just and extra nap and snuggles. She is officially moble and nothing in the house is safe anymore. 

To add to the mess of the throw up all over the car seat, clothes, and blanket... Just as my luck would have it the washer decided to start leaking. But I'm pretty sure that was user error, it's not a good idea to walk around the house and find more things to shove in the washer. It's better to just make another pile for another load. 

Thank heavens today is over. And for an amazing husband who helps clean up throw up and doesn't complain when he returns home at 8:30 from a job and has to immediately fix a washer instead of eating his first meal of the day.